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That you were once unkind, befriends me now,
And for that sorrow, which I then did feel,
Needs must I under my transgression bow,
Unless my nerves were brass or hammer'd steel.
For if you were by my unkindness shaken,

As I by your's, you have pass'd a hell of time; And I, a tyrant, have no leisure taken

To weigh how once I suffer'd in your crime. O that our night of woe might have remember'd My deepest sense, how hard true sorrow hits, And soon to you, as you to me, then tender'd

The humble salve which wounded bosom fits! But that your trespass now becomes a fee ; Mine ransom your's, and your's must ransom me.

CXXI.

'Tis better to be vile, than vile esteem'd,

When not to be receives reproach of being.
And the just pleasure lost, which is so deem'd
Not by our feeling, but by others' seeing.
For why should others' false adulterate eyes
Give salutation to my sportive blood?
Or on my frailties why are frailer spies,

Which in their wills count bad what I think good? No, I am that I am: and they that level

At my abuses, reckon up their own:

I may he straight, though they themselves be bevel; By their rank thoughts my deeds must not be Unless this general evil they maintain, [shown; All men are bad, and in their badness reign.

CXXII.

Thy gift, thy tables are within my brain
Full character'd with lasting memory,
Which shall above that idle rank remain,
Beyond all date, even to eternity:
Or at the least so long as brain and heart
Have faculty by nature to subsist;
Till each to razed oblivion yield his part

Of thee, thy record never can be miss'd.
That poor retention could not so much hold,
Nor need I tallies, thy dear love to score;
Therefore to give them from me was I bold,
To trust those tables that receive thee more:
To keep an adjunct to remember thee,
Were to import forgetfulness in me.

CXXIII.

No Time, thou shalt not boast that I do change:
Thy pyramids, built up with newer might,
To me are nothing novel, nothing strange;
They are but dressings of a former sight.
Our dates are brief, and therefore we adinire
What thou dost foist upon us that is old,
And rather make them born to our desire,
Than think that we before have heard them told.
Thy registers and thee I both defy,

Not wondering at the present nor the past;
For thy records and what we see doth lie,

Made more or less by thy continual haste; This I do vow, and this shall ever be,

I will be true, despite thy scythe and thee.

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CXXV.

Were it aught to me I bore the canopy,

With my extern the outward honouring, Or lay'd great bases for eternity,

Which prove more short than waste or ruining? Have I not seen dwellers on form and favour Lose all, and more, by paying too much rent, For compound sweet foregoing simple savour, Pitiful thrivers, in their gazing spent? No-let me be obsequious in thy heart, And take thou my oblation, poor but free, Which is not mix'd with seconds, knows no art, But mutual render, only me for thee. Hence, thou suborn'd informer a true soul, When most impeach'd, stands least in thy control.

CXXVI.

O thou, my lovely boy, who in thy power

Dost hold Time's fickle glass, his sickle, hour; Who hast by waning grown, and therein show'st Thy lovers withering, as thy sweet self grow'st! If nature, sovereign mistress over wrack, As thou go'st onwards, still will pluck thee back, She keeps thee to this purpose, that her skill May time disgrace, and wretched minutes kill. Yet fear her, O thou minion of her pleasure; She may detain, but not still keep her treasure: Her audit, though delay'd, answer'd must be, And her quietus is to render thee.

CXXVII.

In the old age black was not counted fair,
Or, if it were, it bore not beauty's name;
But now is black beauty's successive heir,
And beauty slander'd with a bastard shame.
For since each hand hath put on nature's power,
Fairing the foul with art's false borrow'd face,
Sweet beauty hath no name, no holy hour,

But is profaned, if not lives in disgrace.
Therefore my mistress' eyes are raven black,
Her eyes so suited: and they mourners seem
At such, who not born fair, no beauty lack,
Slandering creation with a false esteem:
Yet so they mourn, becoming of their woe,
That every tongue says, beauty should do so.

CXXVIII.

How oft, when thou, my music, music play'st,
Upon that blessed wood whose motion sounds
With thy sweet fingers, when thou gently sway'st
The wiry concord that mine ear confounds,
Do I envy those jacks, that nimble leap
To kiss the tender inward of thy hand,
Whilst my poor lips, which should that harvest reap,
At the wood's boldness by thee blushing stand!
To be so tickled, they would change their state
And situation with those dancing chips,
O'er whom thy fingers walk with gentle gait,
Making dead wood more bless'd than living lips.
Since saucy jacks so happy are in this,
Give them thy fingers, me thy lips to kiss.

CXXIX.

The expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action; and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust';
Enjoy'd no sooner but despised straight;
Past reason hunted, and no sooner had,
Past reason hated, as a swallow'd bait,
On purpose laid to make the taker mad:
Mad in pursuit, and in possession so;

Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme;
A bliss in proof,-and proved, a very woe;

Before, a joy proposed; behind, a dream; All this the world well knows; yet none knows well To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.

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My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun :
Coral is far more red than her lips' red:
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask'd, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.

I love to hear her speak,-yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go,-

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My mistress, when she walks, treads on the And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare As any she bely'd with false compare.

CXXXI.

Thou art as tyrannous, so as thou art,

As those whose beauties proudly make them cruel; For well thou know'st to my dear doting heart Thou art the fairest and most precious jewel. Yet, in good faith, some say that thee behold, Thy face hath not the power to make love groan : To say they err, I dare not be so bold,

Although I swear it to myself alone. And, to be sure that is not false I swear,

A thousand groans, but thinking on thy face, One on another's neck, do witness bear

Thy black is fairest in my judgment's place. In nothing art thou black, save in thy deeds, And thence this slander, as I think, proceeds.

CXXXII.

Thine eyes I love, and they, as pitying me,
Knowing thy heart, torment me with disdain ;
Have put on black, and loving mourners be,
Looking with pretty ruth upon my pain.
And truly not the morning sun of heaven

Better becomes the gray cheeks of the east,
Nor that full star that ushers in the even,
Doth half that glory to the sober west,

As those two mourning eyes become thy face:
O let it then as well beseem thy heart

To mourn for me, since mourning doth thee grace,
And suit thy pity like in every part.

Then will I swear beauty herself is black,
And all they foul that thy complexion lack.

CXXXIII.

Beshrew that heart that makes my heart to groan For that deep wound it gives my friend and me! Is't not enough to torture me alone,

But slave to slavery my sweet'st friend must be? Me from myself thy cruel eye hath taken,

And my next self thou harder hast engross'd, Of him, myself, and thee, I am forsaken;

A torment thrice three-fold thus to be cross'd. Prison my heart in thy steel bosom's ward, But then my friend's heart let my poor heart bail; Whoe'er keeps me, let my heart be his guard;

Thou canst not then use rigour in my gaol: And yet thou wilt; for I, being pent in thee, Perforce am thine, and all that is in me

CXXXIV.

So now I have confess'd that he is thine,
And I myself am mortgaged to thy will;
Myself I'll forfeit, so that other mine

Thou wilt restore, to be my comfort still:
But thou wilt not, nor he will not be free,
For thou art covetous, and he is kind;
He learn'd but, surety-like, to write for me,
Under that bond that him as fast doth bind.
The statute of thy beauty thou wilt take,

Thou usurer, that put'st forth all to use, And sue a friend, came debtor for my sake; So him I lose through my unkind abuse. Him have I lost; thou hast both him and me; He pays the whole, and yet I am not free.

CXXXV.

Whoever hath her wish, thou hast thy will,
And will to boot, and will in overplus;
More than enough am I that vex thee still,

To thy sweet will making addition thus. Wilt thou, whose will is large and spacious, Not once vouchsafe to hide my will in thine Shall will in others seem right gracious,

And in my will no fair acceptance shine! The sea, all water, yet receives rain still, And in abundance addeth to his store; So thou, being rich in will, add to thy will One will of mine, to make thy large will more. Let no unkind, no fair beseeches kill; Think all but one, and me in that one Will.

CXXXVI.

If thy soul check thee that I come so near, Swear to thy blind soul that I was thy will And will, thy soul knows, is admitted there; Thus far for love, my love-suit, sweet, fulfil. Will will fulfil the treasure of thy love,

Ay, fill it full with wills, and my will one. In things of great receipt with ease we prove ; Among a number one is reckon'd none. Then in the number let me pass untold, Though in thy stores' account I one must be; For nothing hold me, so it please thee hold

That nothing me, a something sweet to thee: Make but my name thy love, and love that still, And then thou lov'st me,-for my name is Will

CXXXVII.

Thou blind fool Love, what dost thou to mine eye
That they behold, and see not what they see?
They know what beauty is, see where it lies,
Yet what the best is, take the worst to be.
If eyes, corrupt by over-partial looks,

Be anchor'd in the bay where all men ride,
Why of eyes' falsehood hast thou forged hooks,
Whereto the judgment of my heart is tied ?
Why should my heart think that a several plot,
Which my heart knows the wide world's common
Or mine eyes seeing this, say this is not,
To put fair truth upon so foul a face;
In things right true my heart and eyes have err'd,
And to this false plague are they now transferr'd.

CXXXVIII.

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When my love swears that she is made of truth,
I do believe her, though I know she lies;
That she might think me some untutor'd youth,
Unlearned in the world's false subtilties.
Thus vainly thinking that she thinks me young,
Although she knows my days are past the best,
Simply I credit her false-speaking tongue,

On both sides thus is simple truth supprest.
But wherefore says she not, she is unjust?
And wherefore say not I, that I am old?
O love's best habit is in seeming trust,
And age in love loves not to have years told:
Therefore I lie with her, and she with me,
And in our faults by lies we flatter'd be.

CXXXIX.

O call not me to justify the wrong,
That thy unkindness lays upon my heart;
Wound me not with thine eye, but with thy tongue;
Use power with power, and slay me not by art.
Tell me thou lovest elsewhere; but in my sight,
Dear heart, forbear to glance thine eye aside.
What need'st thou wound with cunning when thy
Is more than my oppress'd defence can 'bide? [might
Let me excuse thee: ah! my love well knows
Her pretty looks have been mine enemies;
And therefore from my face she turns my foes,
That they elsewhere might dart their injuries:
Yet do not so, but since I am near slain,
Kill me outright with looks, and rid my pain.

CXL.

Be wise as thou art cruel; do not press

My tongue-tied patience with to much disdain; Lest sorrow lend me words, and words express The manner of my pity-wanting pain. If I might teach thee wit, better it were,

Though not to love, yet, love, to tell me so; (As testy sick men, when their deaths be near, No news but health from their physicians know :) For, if I should despair, I should grow mad,

And in my madness might speak ill of thee: Now this ill-wresting world has grown so bad, Mad slanderers by mad ears believed be. That I may not be so, nor thou bely'd, Bear thine eyes straight, though thy proud heart go

CXLI.

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In faith I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But 'tis my heart that loves what they despise,
Who in despite of view is pleased to dote.
Nor are my ears with thy tongue's tune delighted;
Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,
Nor taste nor smell, desire to be invited
To any sensual feast with thee alone:

But my five wits, nor my five senses can

Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee, Who leaves unsway'd the likeness of a man,

Thy proud heart's slave and vassal wretch to be: Only my plague thus far I count my gain, That she that makes me sin, awards me pain.

CXLII.

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate,

Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving: O but with mine compare thou thine own state, And thou shalt find it merits not reproving; Or, if it do, not from those lips of thine,

That have profaned their scarlet ornaments,
And seal'd false bonds of love as oft as mine;
Robb'd others' beds revenues of their rents.
Be it lawful I love thee, as thou lov'st those
Whom thine eyes woo as mine importune thee:
Root pity in thy heart, that when it grows,
Thy pity may deserve to pitied be.

If thou dost seek to have what thou dost hide,
By self-example may'st thou be denied!

CXLIII.

Lo, as a careful house-wife runs to catch

One of her feather'd creatures broke away, Sets down her babe, and makes all swift dispatch, In pursuit of the thing she would have stay; Whilst her neglected child holds her in chase, Cries to catch her whose busy care is bent To follow that which flies before her face,

Not prizing her poor infant's discontent; So run'st thou after that which flies from thee, Whilst I thy babe chase thee afar behind; But if thou catch thy hope, turn back to me, And play the mother's part, kiss me, be kind: So will I pray that thou may'st have thy Will, If thou turn back, and my loud crying still.

CXLIV.

Two loves I have of comfort and despair, Which like two spirits do suggest me still; The better angel is a man right fair,

The worser spirit a woman, colour'd ill. To win me soon to hell, my female evil

Tempteth my better angel from my side, And would corrupt my saint to be a devil, Wooing his purity with her foul pride. And whether that my angel be turn'd fiend, Suspect I may, yet not directly tell; But being both from me, both to each friend, I guess one angel in another's hell. Yet this shall I ne'er know, but live in doubt, Till my bad angel fire my good one out.

CXLV.

Those lips that Love's own hand did make, Breathed forth the sound that said, I hate, To me that languish'd for her sake:

But when she saw my woeful state, Straight in her heart did mercy come, Chiding that tongue, that ever sweet Was used in giving gentle doom;

And taught it thus a-new to greet:
I hate she alter'd with an end,

That follow'd it as gentle day
Doth follow night, who like a fiend
From heaven to hell is flown away.
I hate from hate away she threw,
And saved my life, saying-Not you.

CXLVI.

Poor soul, the centre of my sinful earth,

Fool'd by those rebel powers that thee array, Why dost thou pine within, and suffer dearth, Painting thy outward walls so costly gay? Why so large cost, having so short a lease, Dost thou upon thy fading mansion spend? Shall worms, inheritors of this excess,

Eat up thy charge? Is this thy body's end? Then, soul, live thou upon thy servant's loss, And let that pine to aggravate thy store; Buy terms divine in selling hours of dross;

Within be fed, without be rich no more: So shalt thou feed on death, that feeds on men, And Death once dead, there's no more dying then.

CXLVII.

My love is as a fever, longing still

For that which longer nurseth the disease;
Feeding on that which doth preserve the ill,
The uncertain sickly appetite to please.
My reason, the physician to my love,

Angry that his prescriptions are not kept,
Hath left me, and I desperate now approve,
Desire is death, which physic did except.
Past cure I am, now reason is past care,

And frantic-mad with ever-more unrest; My thoughts and my discourse, as mad men's are, At random from the truth vainly express'd; For I have sworn thee fair, and thought thee bright, Who art as black as hell, as dark as night.

CXLVIII.

O me! what eyes hath love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight?
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?
If that be fair whereon my false eyes dote,
What means the world to say it is not so?
If it be not, then love doth well denote

Love's eye is not so true as all men's: no,
How can it? O, how can Love's eye be true,
That is so vex'd with watching and with tears?
No marvel then though I mistake my view;

The sun itself sees not, till heaven clears. O, cunning Love! with tears thou keep'st me blind, Lest eyes well-seeing thy foul faults should find.

CXLIX.

Canst thou, O cruel! say I love thee not, When I, against myself, with thee partake? Do I not think on thee, when 1 forgot

Am of myself, all tyrant, for thy sake? Who hateth thee that I do call my friend? On whom frown'st thou that I do fawn upon? Nay, if thou low'r'st on me, do I not spend Revenge upon myself with present moan? What merit do I in myself respect,

That is so proud thy service to despise, When all my best doth worship thy defect,

Commanded by the motion of thine eyes? But, love, hate on, for now I know thy mind; Those that can see thou lov'st, and I am blind.

CL.

O from what power hast thou this powerful might,
What insufficiency my heart to sway?
To make me give the lie to my true sight,

And swear that brightness doth not grace the day?
Whence hast thou this becoming of things ill,
That in the very refuse of thy deeds
There is such strength and warranties of skill,

That in my mind, thy worst all best exceeds? Who taught thee how to make me love thee more, The more I hear and see just cause of hate! O, though I love what others do abhor,

With others thou should'st not abhor my state; If thy unworthiness raised love in me, More worthy I to be beloved of thee.

CLI.

Love is too young to know what conscience is; Yet who knows not conscience is born of love? Then, gentle cheater, urge not my amiss,

Lest guilty of my faults thy sweet self prove.

For thou betraying me, I do betray

My nobler part to my gross body's treason; My soul doth tell my body that he may

Triumph in love; flesh stays no farther reason; But rising at thy name, doth point out thee

As his triumphant prize. Proud of this pride, He is contented thy poor drudge to be,

To stand in thy affairs, fall by thy side. No want of conscience hold it that I call Her love, for whose dear love I rise and fall.

CLII.

In loving thee thou know'st I am forsworn,

But thou art twice forsworn, to me love swearing; In act thy bed-vow broke, and new faith torn, In vowing new hate after new love bearing. But why of two oaths' breach do I accuse thee, When I break twenty? I am perjured most; For all my vows are oaths but to misuse thee,

And all my honest faith in thee is lost; For I have sworn deep oaths of thy deep kindness, Oaths of thy love, thy truth, thy constancy; And, to enlighten thee, gave eyes to blindness, Or made them swear against the thing they see, For I have sworn thee fair; more perjured I, To swear, against the truth, so foul a lie.

CLIII.

Cupid lay'd by his brand, and fell asleep :
A maid of Dian's this advantage found,
And his love-kindling fire did quickly steep
In a cold valley-fountain of that ground;
Which borrowed from this holy fire of love
A dateless lively heat, still to endure,
And grew a seething bath, which yet men prove
Against strange maladies a sovereign cure.
But at my mistress' eye love's brand new-fired,
The boy for trial needs would touch my breast;

I sick withal, the help of bath desired,

And thither hied, a sad distempered guest, But found no cure; the bath for my help lies Where Cupid got new fire; my mistress' eyes.

CLIV.

The little love-god lying once asleep,

Laid by his side his heart-inflaming brand, Whilst many nymphs that vowed chaste life to keep, Came tripping by; but in her maiden hand

The fairest votary took up that fire

Which many legions of true hearts had warm'd; And so the general of hot desire

Was sleeping by a virgin hand disarm'd. This brand she quenched in a cool well by, Which from love's fire took heat perpetual, Growing a bath and helpful remedy

For men diseased; but I, my mistress' thrall, Came here for cure, and this by that I prove, Love's fire heats water, water cools not love.

PASSIONATE PILGRIM.

DID not the heavenly rhetoric of thine eye,
'Gainst whom the world cannot hold argument,
Persuade my heart to this false perjury?

Vows for thee broke deserve not punishment,
A woman I forswore; but I will prove,

Thou being a goddess, I forswore not thee: My vow was earthly, thou a heavenly love;

Thy grace being gain'd, cures all disgrace in me. My vow was breath, and breath a vapour is;

Then, thou fair sun, which on my earth dost shine, Exhal'st this vapour vow; in thee it is:

If broken, theu it is no fault of mine. If by me broke, what fool is not so wise To break an oath, to win a paradise?

II.

Sweet Cytherea, sitting by a brook,

With young Adonis, lovely, fresh, and green, Did court the lad with many a lovely look, Such looks as none could look but beauty's queen.

She told him stories to delight his ear;

She show'd him favours to allure his eye;
To win his heart, she touch'd him here and there:
Touches so soft still conquer chastity.

But whether unripe years did want conceit,
Or he refused to take her figured proffer,
The tender nibbler would not touch the bait,
But smile and jest at every gentle offer:
Then fell she on her back, fair queen, and toward;
He rose and ran away; ah, fool too froward!

III.

"Iflove make me forsworn, how shall I swear to love? O never faith could hold, if not to beauty vow'd: Tho' to myself forsworn, to thee I'll constant prove; Those tho'ts to me like oaks, to thee like osiers bow'd. Study his bias leaves, and makes his book thine eyes, Where all those pleasures live, that art can com[fice; prehend. If knowledge be the mark, to know thee shall sufWell learned is that tongue that well can thee commend;

All ignorant that soul that sees thee without wonder; Which is to me some praise, that I thy parts admire: Thine eye Jove's lightning seems, thy voice his dreadful thunder,

Which (not to anger bent) is music and sweet fire. Celestial as thou art, O do not love that wrong, To sing the heaven's praise with such an earthly [tongue."

IV.

Scarce had the sun dried up the dewy morn,
And scarce the herd gone to the hedge for shade,
When Cytherea, all in love forlorn,

A longing tarríance for Adonis made,
Under an osier growing by a brook,

A brook, where Adon used to cool his spleen. Hot was the day; she hotter that did look

For his approach, that often there had been. Anon he comes, and throws his mantle by,

And stood stark naked on the brook's green brim; The sun look'd on the world with glorious eye, Yet not so wistly as this queen on him: He spying her, bounced in, whereas he stood; "O Jove," quoth she, "why was not I a flood?"

V.

"Fair is my love, but not so fair as fickle,

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Mild as a dove, but neither true nor trusty; Brighter than glass is, and yet, as glass is, brittle, Softer than wax, and yet, as iron, rusty: A little pale, with damask die to grace her, None fairer, nor none falser to deface her.

Her lips to mine how often hath she joined,
Between each kiss her oaths of true love swearing;
How many tales to please me hath she coin'd,

Dreading my love, the loss whereof still fearing!
Yet in the midst of all her pure protestings,
Her faith, her oaths, her tears, and all were jestings.
She burnt with love, as straw with fire flameth,

She burnt out love, as soon as straw out burneth;
She framed the love, and yet she foil'd the framing,
She bade love last, and yet she fell a turning,
Was this a lover, or a lecher whether?
Bad in the best, though excellent in neither.

VI.

"If music and sweet poetry agree,

As they must needs, the sister and the brother,
Then must the love be great 'twixt thee and me,
Because thou lov'st the one, and I the other.
Dowland to thee is dear, whose heavenly touch
Upon the lute doth ravish human sense;
As passing all conceit, needs no defence."
Spenser to me, whose deep conceit is such,
Thou lov'st to hear the sweet melodious sound,
That Phoebus' lute, the queen of music, makes;
And I in deep delight am chiefly drown'd,

Whenas himself to singing he betakes.
One god is god of both, as poets feign;
One knight loves both, and both in thee remain."

VII.

Fair was the morn, when the fair queen of love,

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Paler for sorrow than her milk-white dove,

For Adon's sake, a youngster proud and wild;
Her stand she takes upon a steep-up hill:

Anon Adonis comes with horn and hounds;
Forbade the boy he should not pass those grounds:
She, silly queen, with more than love's good will,
"Once," quoth she, "did I see a fair sweet youth

Here in these brakes deep-wounded with a boar,
See in my thigh, (quoth she,) here was the sore:"
Deep in the thigh, a spectacle of ruth!
She showed hers; he saw more wounds than one,
And blushing fled, and left her all alone.

VIII.

"Sweet rose, fair flower,untimely pluck'd, soon faded,
Pluck'd in the bud, and faded in the spring!
Bright orient pearl, alack! too timely shaded!
Fair creature, kill'd too soon by death's sharp sting!
Like a green plum that hangs upon a tree,
And falls, through wind, before the fall should be.
I weep for thee, and yet no cause I have;

For why thou left'st me nothing in thy Will.
And yet thou left'st me more than I did crave;
For why? I craved nothing of thee still:
O yes, dear friend, I pardon crave of thee;
Thy discontent thou didst bequeath to me."

IX.

Fair Venus with Adonis sitting by her,

Under a myrtle shade, began to woo him: She told the youngling how god Mars did try her, [me;" And as he fell to her, she fell to him. "Even thus," quoth she, "the warlike god embraced [me:" And then she clip'd Adonis in her arms: "Even thus," quoth she, "the warlike god unlaced As if the boy should use such like loving charms. "Even thus," quoth she, "he seized on my lips," And with her lips on his did act the seizure; And as she fetched breath, away he skips;

And would not take her meaning nor her pleasure. Ah! that I had my lady at this bay, To kiss and clip me till I run away!

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